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You know it's bad when every fucking emo song in the world can't express how much it *really* hurts to have your heart torn to shreds and stomped on. I just want to make it all stop and to feel better or to just die. I'm sorry, I know you guys hate hearing me like this. I'm too depressed, I know, and I'm sorry. Or maybe you just don't care at all... that it would just figure. Either way, I'm sorry for sucking at pretty much everything. I deserve to die slowly and painfully... oh wait, I already am.

All I need to know is that I'm something that you're missing.
It's pathetic.
You could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt.
It's pathetic.

I'm pathetic. I'm sorry and I wish I wasn't so like the way I am. And I wish I was stronger and had more self esteem, but damn, I certainly don't have any of that left. I am so that stupid girl. And it makes me hate myself even more. I'm so stupid and fuck... just fuck.

I'm pathetic.


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Apr. 4th, 2003 12:18 am (UTC)
<33333 you don't deserve anything bad to happen to you, don't say that.

i hope things start going better for my big buddy, i don't like seeing you sad.

and ps, good song.
Apr. 4th, 2003 12:22 am (UTC)
Thanks... You know, I see you all the time walking or waiting for a bus while I'm driving, but you never get on my bus. One of these days I'm going to honk, so I'm just warning you now...
Apr. 4th, 2003 07:07 am (UTC)
I do hate hearing you like this but I do care - so if there's anything I can do...
Apr. 4th, 2003 07:56 pm (UTC)
I know, and you're the best.
Apr. 4th, 2003 04:54 pm (UTC)
Apr. 4th, 2003 07:55 pm (UTC)
Awww, thanks. I can't wait to come up and party with you guys at the end of the month. I feel like I'm the 7th suite member... well, maybe a number lower than that, since I think I am more welcome/there more than some of your suite members. ;)
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