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Why I Hate Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for a lot of things... my friends, my health, my cat, my financial stability (albeit growing more precarious every day I go unemployed), trapeze, my nursing education and the fact that I'm almost done with it, and what little family I have left. Despite being thankful for so much, I hate Thanksgiving. I always spent Thanksgiving with my dad, and two years ago Thanksgiving was the last day I got to speak to him. The next day he went into the hospital and died 10 days later. So I somehow staill always have somewhere to go on Thanksgiving, but it's not the same. This time of year, these days surrounding Thanksgiving as we transition into December are the worst of the year. I don't find myself thinking of all the things of thankful for, but what I'm still so upset about losing. But so far I've made it through another holiday, despite the fact that I feel desperately lonely and depressed almost all the time. If I can make it through December 3rd, which may not be that easy considering I'll be on an oncology floor that day, then maybe this crushing sensation on my chest, and this sense of impending doom will go away.

Because I actually do like Christmas.

I put up most of the decorations today, even though I should've been doing the mounds of homework and projects I have. The cat is happy, but I don't know if I feel any better. I hope Christmas is good this year... I feel like it might be lame because I can't afford to be as generous I have in the past. (Hopefully people will remember that I tried to be doubly generous last year...) But I am still sending out holiday cards! I promise they're super cute.

Poll #1491517 Holiday Cards
This poll is closed.

Who wants a holiday card? Leave your address here!

Leave your address or email me and I'll send you one. Also, I am on LJ so sporadically these days, if you could direct me to your card posts, too, I'd be much obliged. Okay, have to get ready to go to trapeze... hoping there's not obscene amounts of traffic. Later, skaterz.


( 17 beeps — speeeeeaaaakkkkk )
Nov. 28th, 2009 07:05 pm (UTC)
*hugs* <3
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:03 am (UTC)
*hugs* It was good to see you tonight! I was hoping you guys would be there!
Nov. 28th, 2009 07:33 pm (UTC)
*big snuggly hugs*
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:03 am (UTC)
Nov. 28th, 2009 10:04 pm (UTC)
The holidays can be a really hard time for a lot of people. I know I often feel bad because all my dad's family (grandma, grandpa, uncle) are gone, and we would usually spend time with them, and now we can't...Ah, you're strong, you can make it through. Always hold on to the good memories.

I believe I still have your address (Is the zip 06042?), but here is the post for addresses. I just got some cute new cards today and so would love to send you one!
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:08 am (UTC)
Yes, it's important not to forget the good memories.

And yep, that's my address. :) I'd love to get a card from you again!
Nov. 28th, 2009 11:17 pm (UTC)
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:09 am (UTC)
Nov. 28th, 2009 11:23 pm (UTC)
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:08 am (UTC)
Thanks! :D
Nov. 29th, 2009 02:08 am (UTC)
♥ I loved seeing you today, hoping you feel better soon.
Nov. 29th, 2009 05:09 am (UTC)
It was great to see you, too! I look forward to when you're back on break!
Nov. 29th, 2009 06:31 am (UTC)
*hugs* I always think about you now during Thanksgiving and Christmas. You're such a strong, amazing person but I also know what it's like to put on a brave front for the world. I love you bunches, darlin, and I know how hard the holidays can be after you've lost a parent. (Okay so technically Timmy wasn't my parent but I loved him like he was my 2nd father.) Hold onto the happy memories and let them comfort you in the wake of the sadness. I swear I wish I lived closer to you because I'd give you a huge hug and I'd make cupcakes for you for a change.

*bunches and bunches of hugs* You're an inspiration, sweetheart. Never forget that.

Here's my card entry. I know I still have your and Courtney's address around here somewhere but I'm not sure so just in case.
Nov. 30th, 2009 08:03 pm (UTC)
<3 *hugs* ILU!
Dec. 1st, 2009 03:21 am (UTC)
<3 *more hugs* ILU2 bb! *even more hugs*
Nov. 29th, 2009 11:17 pm (UTC)
Great to see you last night, and know if you need anything - I will be there in seconds!
Nov. 30th, 2009 08:02 pm (UTC)
Can't wait to see you again soon!
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