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First day of nursing school.

Today has pretty much been the most overwhelming day of my entire life. The first day of class was exhilarating and the thought of being so close to actually being able to care for patients and help people practically takes my breath away with excitement. But it was absolutely terrifying.

I am already about 400 pages (literally, no exaggeration) behind in reading because I was away on vacation. I have lab assignments due over the next few days and I haven't even taken all my books out of the shrink wrap yet. And everything else that is planned for us for the rest of the semester. The NCLEX prep and the pharmacology questions and the presentations and all of this from our first day! Just looking at the syllabus made me want to run screaming from the classroom. By midday I wasn't sure which I wanted to do more: throw up or start sobbing hysterically.

All of my instructors seem really nice, and like they're really there to help us become the best nurses we can be. I'm very grateful for that, but I still don't trust that I will be able to make it through this program. I am shocked there are other students in my class still trying to work. I am doubting every other commitment I've made so far... from Delta Sigma Pi to circus to working out to just being a good girlfriend, friend, and daughter! There are single parents in my class and I don't know how one is expected to be a functional human being and stay on top of all the work that's expected of us.

So I guess, if I am strong enough to make it through this week without falling apart at the seams, I just want this to serve as a preemptive apology for the next 12 months. I'm probably going to be a horrible friend and person, so I'm sorry. But I'll try. If I fail, well, I guess I'll see you after I pass the NCLEX... if I can make it that far.

I'm going to use this picture to get me through:

That's me, age 7, dressed up as Florence Nightingale for a book report. Funny how these things work out, huh? Later, skaterz.

PS - Oh, speaking of "funny how these things work out"... my mom was just admitted to Hartford Hospital today, to one of two floors that I'll be working on for my clinical rotation. Hilarious, huh? Getting her leg amputated below the knee is less hilarious though.



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Jan. 13th, 2009 07:07 am (UTC)
YOU CAN DO IT! You'll get in the groove, I promise. The insane, brain-draining groove, but just concentrate on what is right ahead of you and knock it all down one thing at a time, and you'll be okay, I swear. Everyone is crapping their pants right now, I promise. (I'm in a different type of program -- comm disorders -- but I thought one of the girls in my class was going to stroke out first day of clinical METHODS, and we all survived.) And my husband hasn't left me yet. :P Those who love you will be supportive and proud of what you are doing, have the faith they have in you in yourself.

And my best wishes for your mom and her health.
Jan. 13th, 2009 12:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :) *hugs*
Jan. 13th, 2009 12:02 pm (UTC)
Youll be a different person at the end... but for the better.
I am a qualified nurse in England. I dont know what its like in the US but here its a 3 year course to become a nurse. It will be a crazy ride but I'm sure youll be fine. You will learn so much, not just about anatomy and pharmacology but also the things that cant be learnt in a classroom, people, their emotions, your emotions, how people tick. You beliefs and values will be tested but you will be a stronger better person at the end of it.

It will be hard and people will come and go from the course. As for fitting things in: I did it, I socialised, drove 2 hours every weekend to see my boyfriend, worked part time, and even learnt ball room dancing and still handed in (most of) my assignments on time.

Make the most of it- its a once in a lifetime (and never again) experience!
Jan. 13th, 2009 01:51 pm (UTC)
Aw hun. I'm so sorry things are so stressful for you right now. I think you're going to be an amazing nurse, and still maintain wonderful relationships with everyone you love!

My best wishes go out to your mom for a speedy recovery. :)
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:09 am (UTC)
Thank you, I'm going to do my best!
Jan. 13th, 2009 01:52 pm (UTC)
If anyone can do it...
you can too. Miss you here at the office :(
Jan. 18th, 2009 03:21 am (UTC)
Re: If anyone can do it...
It was good to see you today!
Jan. 13th, 2009 02:03 pm (UTC)
Good luck and I know you'll be fine :)
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:10 am (UTC)
Thanks. :)
Jan. 13th, 2009 02:24 pm (UTC)
I have every confidence in you. You'll do wonderful in school and will make an amazing nurse. *hugs* And don't worry about being a "bad friend"...we'll be here whenever you get the chance to "visit". Besides, we all want you to succeed so it's all good.

Jan. 18th, 2009 12:10 am (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you AGAIN. :)
Jan. 13th, 2009 02:33 pm (UTC)
Hang in there! You'll find your groove and run with it, and while you'll be busy, I'm sure you'll enjoy it and kick some serious ass at it.


And my thoughts will be with your mom...
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:10 am (UTC)
I hope so! Thank you.
Jan. 13th, 2009 03:05 pm (UTC)
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC)
*hugs* Here's to being in Storrs two days a week..? :)
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Jan. 13th, 2009 03:29 pm (UTC)
You can do this! It will be tough, but I know that you're going to be an amazing nurse. People will understand that you're ultra-busy with school and labs and things, so don't worry about that, either. Just do well in your program. We're proud of you!

Also, my thoughts are with your mom.


PS: If you want to have study group, I'm spending all of my time studying, too -- we can meet up and have coffee and sit next to each other with piles of notes. It counts as socializing even if we just go over our respective notes and don't actually talk, right? ;)
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:14 am (UTC)
Oooh, study groups sound fun. It makes it so much less horrible. When do you usually do your studying?
Jan. 13th, 2009 03:39 pm (UTC)
Re: classes - just take it a lesson at a time. I have absolute faith in your abilities. :) Feel free to throw me a line.

And I wish a speedy recover for your mom.
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:12 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
Jan. 13th, 2009 04:45 pm (UTC)
YOU CAN DO IT! It just takes time to get used to the new workload. My first semester at OSU I had 600 pages a night per class and thought I was going to die, but I made it.

For help with the reading, try this site: http://www.staff.ncl.ac.uk/naomi.standen/impchina/guttingabook.htm

It's about how to gut a book, which is reading just for the necessary content. hang in there!
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:13 am (UTC)
Ugh, I hope I make it. Thank you for the tip! I'll check it out. Willing to take any study advice at this point!!
Jan. 13th, 2009 05:13 pm (UTC)
Good luck with school! It sucks that it's so stressful, but the job at the end will make it worth it.

Best wishes to you mom!
Jan. 18th, 2009 12:12 am (UTC)
Thank you!
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Jan. 18th, 2009 12:15 am (UTC)
School = suck. Life would be much easier without it!

And thank you. :)
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Jan. 18th, 2009 03:12 am (UTC)
No, you are awesome.
Jan. 13th, 2009 09:50 pm (UTC)
Lover! You can do it! I know you can - can't wait to give you lots of hugs for motivation :)
Jan. 18th, 2009 03:12 am (UTC)
I can't wait for hugs!
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