i'm disaster (wolfsavard) wrote,
i'm disaster

An Update

Dad is still hanging in there. He's mostly unresponsive and hasn't really spoken since... well, not to me since Thanksgiving. But apparently he was lucid when he made all these decisions to start "comfort measures only" treatment. Everything just seems to be happening so quickly. I just don't understand how he can be fine one week and on his death bed the next. I don't think it's all hit me yet, but I just can't stand the thought of not being able to call him or talk to him ever again. I don't know... I guess that it'll hit me eventually. But now it's just waiting...

PERT told me to take as much time as I need. I was supposed to have an exam tonight, too, but I got an extension on that as well. But really the most supportive people have been my friends. Seriously, you should be incredibly jealous because I have the best friends in the entire universe. foreverseenstar called everyone for me and made a delicious ice cream pie. athena2483 immediately hopped on a bus from Pennsylvania when she found out to spend the weekend with me. nyrclooch picked me up Saturday morning and sat with me all day despite having a party to plan. clarkdreams has driven down all the way from Worcester every single day and cooked meals for us. Seriously, I don't deserve any of you, and I am almost embarrassed to have so many people going so far out of their way for me. *blush* I love you guys.

Right now I'm at the hospital (I discovered free wireless so that's pretty sweet), just hanging out. I don't want him to be alone so I think I might wind up spending the night. My godfather is here right now, too, but not sure how long he's going to stay. If he leaves I can usurp the comfy chair and maybe sleep for a while. We'll see... the night is young.

By the way, thank you so much everyone for your kind words and well wishes. I'm sorry I haven't really been a great lj friend lately... I haven't had too much time at the computer, so while I've skimmed some of my flist I haven't had much time to comment. Also, thank you for all the comments on my last few entries... I just haven't had the energy to respond, but I do appreciate everyone's kind words. Anyway, I think I'm going go be productive or do something else to get my mind off stuff.. while willing my godfather to give up the comfy chair because my ass is numb. Later, skaterz.
Tags: dad, friends, hospital
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