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Dad is still hanging in there. He's mostly unresponsive and hasn't really spoken since... well, not to me since Thanksgiving. But apparently he was lucid when he made all these decisions to start "comfort measures only" treatment. Everything just seems to be happening so quickly. I just don't understand how he can be fine one week and on his death bed the next. I don't think it's all hit me yet, but I just can't stand the thought of not being able to call him or talk to him ever again. I don't know... I guess that it'll hit me eventually. But now it's just waiting...

PERT told me to take as much time as I need. I was supposed to have an exam tonight, too, but I got an extension on that as well. But really the most supportive people have been my friends. Seriously, you should be incredibly jealous because I have the best friends in the entire universe. foreverseenstar called everyone for me and made a delicious ice cream pie. athena2483 immediately hopped on a bus from Pennsylvania when she found out to spend the weekend with me. nyrclooch picked me up Saturday morning and sat with me all day despite having a party to plan. clarkdreams has driven down all the way from Worcester every single day and cooked meals for us. Seriously, I don't deserve any of you, and I am almost embarrassed to have so many people going so far out of their way for me. *blush* I love you guys.

Right now I'm at the hospital (I discovered free wireless so that's pretty sweet), just hanging out. I don't want him to be alone so I think I might wind up spending the night. My godfather is here right now, too, but not sure how long he's going to stay. If he leaves I can usurp the comfy chair and maybe sleep for a while. We'll see... the night is young.

By the way, thank you so much everyone for your kind words and well wishes. I'm sorry I haven't really been a great lj friend lately... I haven't had too much time at the computer, so while I've skimmed some of my flist I haven't had much time to comment. Also, thank you for all the comments on my last few entries... I just haven't had the energy to respond, but I do appreciate everyone's kind words. Anyway, I think I'm going go be productive or do something else to get my mind off stuff.. while willing my godfather to give up the comfy chair because my ass is numb. Later, skaterz.


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Nov. 27th, 2007 07:20 am (UTC)
Oh baby I am so sorry. I cannot even begin to imagine what you're going through right now. *hugs* Know that, if I could, I'd be up there in a HEARTBEAT.

Promise you'll call me if you need to talk, vent, want me to distract you with insane (and inane) s*it...do you have my cell #? I'll email it to you or ask Courtney for it.

Love ya darlin...and I'm sending out good thoughts and prayers and vibes for you and your dad. I'll light a candle for you both.
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:21 pm (UTC)
Love you, too. And thank you. *hugs*
Nov. 27th, 2007 07:34 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to have all of this happen to you. I know I'm not the best commenter in the world, but I do read your LJ. I know what it's like to lose a family member, especially one you're extremely close to.

If you ever, ever need anybody to talk to, I'm here for you. You and your dad are in my thoughts and prayers.

*huge hugs and love*
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you. *hugs*
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Nov. 27th, 2007 08:18 pm (UTC)
Yeah, renal cell carcinoma that has metastasized to just about everywhere.

Nov. 27th, 2007 10:23 am (UTC)
i'm so sorry to hear about your dad, sweetheart. it's so very important to have people around us who care at times like this, and it sounds like you've got an amazing group of friends surrounding you. i'll be keeping you and your dad in my thoughts. *hugs* ♥
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you. *hugs*
Nov. 27th, 2007 10:51 am (UTC)
*hugs* You're both in my thoughts
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you.
Nov. 27th, 2007 01:51 pm (UTC)
Sweetie, I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I'm glad you have such awesome friends to help you through it, and you know that if I lived closer, I'd be there in a heartbeat. {{hugs}}

And remember, email me if you wanna talk. I've been through it all before.
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:23 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you.
Nov. 27th, 2007 07:51 pm (UTC)
I'll be there again toooniiight, but I'll let Amie do the cooking!:)
Nov. 27th, 2007 08:20 pm (UTC)
Miss you already.
Nov. 28th, 2007 01:13 am (UTC)
Your friends do sound awesome. :)
I don't really know what to say except what everyone else has said - that we are all thinking about you and hoping for the best. No one deserves the bad things going on right now, but you definitely deserve all the support in the world.

re: your previous post... I can send you something on your list. I won't say what, though, so it can be a surprise. :) Can you message me your address?
Nov. 28th, 2007 02:17 pm (UTC)
My friends are incredible. I'm so so lucky. And thank you for your kind words. I messaged you my address. :)
Nov. 28th, 2007 02:08 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry for all of the pain you're in right now. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Nov. 28th, 2007 02:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
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