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I was really going to try to do a post today about all the things I'm thankful for, but I'm a lazy piece of shit and it's not even Thanksgiving anymore. And really it was the most depressing Thanksgiving in the history of all Thanksgivings.

He's dying. He's really dying this time. I just know it.

So yeah, there are plenty of things I am thankful for like cheese and the most incredible friends anyone could ever ask for and anything that stops me from thinking about my dad dying for more than 10 minutes.

But I don't feel like being thankful. I'm not in a thankful mood. I'm depressed and drained and lethargic and I have 2083473 things to do this weekend and I'm going to be at Best Buy in 4 hours and I'm going to do a shit ton of shopping that I don't have money to do and I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

Fuck this. Fuck talking about hospice care and funerals and giving up and running out of time and DEATH on fucking Thanksgiving. Fuck everything.

Hope your day was better than mine. Passing out for a few hours because I can't stand being awake anymore. Later, skaterz.


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Nov. 23rd, 2007 06:09 am (UTC)
i dont know you well, but i cant read this and not comment. nothing i will say will make it better, but...

i'm praying for you guys, for what its worth. and if youever need to escape the life you know, a virtual stranger is here to listen. (thats me <3)
Nov. 23rd, 2007 06:16 am (UTC)
I second the comment from biggrstaffbunch.

I'm sending lots of love, thoughts, hugs, and prayers your way. And am another virtual stranger who is willing to listen whenever needed. <33
Nov. 23rd, 2007 06:18 am (UTC)
*hands you a big slice of cake* Won't fix everything, but sometimes you just need a little slice of comfort food to handle it all.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 06:28 am (UTC)
I know we can't make it better for ye, but we can let you know we care.

Nov. 23rd, 2007 07:29 am (UTC)
Oh, Laura... *huge huge huge hugs* I know that really doesn't help any but I know there's nothing I can really say on here that can. We haven't exactly known each other a long time, but if you need someone to vent to, or maybe distract you by talking about random stuff with, I'm here, okay?

Good luck with your shopping tomorrow. Hopefully you get a bit of sleep beforehand. *hugs more* I'm sending lots and lots of positive thoughts and all that jazz your way.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 12:40 pm (UTC)
You've got to stay strong for him! You don't need to be happy right now if you can't, go cry it all out any maybe you'll feel better. I don't know how I can help but I'm willing to help if I can, hug.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 12:56 pm (UTC)
Oh sweetheart...I know I'm like a bazillion miles away but I'm here if you need me. Hope you had fun shopping...you're a better woman than I am for going out at OMFG EARLY to shop!

Love you bunches and let me know if you need me...*mega hugs and cuddles*
Nov. 23rd, 2007 01:02 pm (UTC)
I wish I could say something to make you feel better. All I can say is that I am sure your dad is really happy to have a daughter as caring and strong and beautiful (inside and out) as you. Hang in there and know that we all love you.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 03:52 pm (UTC)
That sounds like my Thanksgiving last year. *snug* Hope things get better for you.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 04:29 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry *sends many hugs*
You and your family are in my thoughts.
Nov. 23rd, 2007 05:14 pm (UTC)
:-/ Roboraptor says cheer up.

Edited at 2007-11-23 05:14 pm (UTC)
Nov. 24th, 2007 12:56 am (UTC)
Awe, honey, I'm so sorry. {{huge hugs}} I've been through it and I know there's really nothing anyone can say to make it better, but if you need to talk, email me. I ♥ you!
Nov. 24th, 2007 05:08 pm (UTC)
I will always be there if you need ANYTHING. Go give him a hug and share in your love for eachother! I LOVE YOU!
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