Log in

No account? Create an account

previous breakdown | next breakdown

I deny the tears in my eyes.

Sometimes I think about my dad and I can't even breathe.

I feel very manic these days, I'm either really hyper or I have like this chest crushing pain. I'm anxious or depressed. I feel like it's not that often, mainly only when I don't have anything going on and I find myself with more than ten minutes of free time to actually stop and think.

Right now I think I'm just sleep deprived (I haven't gotten more than two hours a night since Sunday) and I think I forgot to eat today, so I'm sure that's not helping matters.

Why can't I just let myself be comforted? Why am I so scared to let other people see that I am hurting? It's one thing to write a journal entry, but then in person I just shrug it off. I'm not fine. I'm not just tired. Sometimes I feel like I'm breaking.

I just... I guess I could really use a distraction right now. Please.


Nov. 9th, 2007 11:47 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry love. Just know that I am always here - and will be there in person tomorrow. You are so strong and capable that I know you can and will take care of yourself - but I'll be there with hugs and jugs of sangria for an ample distraction. I love you Laura.

<3 Meg

Ps- I rhymed. That in itself could offer some cheering up!
nurse. leo. attention whore. punk rock princess. flexitarian. space case. deltasig. browncoat. fangirl. professional bridesmaid. lover. geek. only child. dreamer. former market researcher. aerialist. uconn husky. internet addict. twentysomething. enfp/j. crazy cat lady. gryffindor. bohemian. new england gangsta. democrat. narcissist. daughter. friend.

just me.

Latest Month

November 2012


Page Summary

Powered by LiveJournal.com
Designed by Tiffany Chow