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Why can't I ever catch a fucking break?

I'm fucking broke, and that is the least of my worries. (Ha, that's a first!)

Nothing with DSP is working out at all. I am going to be the worst RVP this region has ever seen. I can't even find District Directors.

There's tons of shit to do before Dragon*Con and I don't know when it's going to be done. Forget even trying to sleep before the drive down on Wednesday so we don't crash and die. *snort*

I have so much stuff to do outside of Dragon*Con, that I really need to get done BEFORE Dragon*Con because once I get back life is starting full speed ahead. FUCK.

And now, on top of everything else, my dad is in crazy amounts of financial trouble because of my evil, selfish, gambling-addict whore of a mother. A US Marshall withdrew $8600 from his bank account the other week to pay off credit card debt that my mother racked up in his name. And that's not the end of it... there's about $50,000 more of it out there, and I'm sure it's only a matter of time before they come after that, too. He's on disability and a fixed income and he can't handle this financially, physically, or mentally. The stress is taking a toll on his health that he can't afford. So I told him to put it all on me, which he has. Don't respond saying that this isn't fair and they can't possibly do this to him because it really isn't his debt, because I already know it's not fair, and they CAN do it because they already HAVE done it. And now it's on me to somehow fix this and make it go away. And I don't know how. I don't know where to start. I don't know if it's even really possible. I can't very well pretend to be my father on the phone. Just FUCK.

So yeah. I'm literally seconds away from a nervous break down and I can't even afford to have one because I don't have time to just shut down. FUCK. Well every second that I'm not productive is just putting me even further in the hole so I need to go. Do. Something. I don't know what, but something. Later, skaterz.



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Aug. 27th, 2007 03:43 pm (UTC)
If it makes you feel better, the time before the con is just as crazy stressful for me. So you're not alone at least. Seriously, life could just slow down ANY MINUTE NOW. Sleep is a myth at this point.

And you could maybe Google someone that can help about your dad's situation. Like maybe an advocate that can point you in the right direction at least?
Aug. 27th, 2007 04:00 pm (UTC)
Yeah, sleep, what's that?

I tried the googling and I think I found a state number for victims advocate. Now I just need to find time to call. *keeping fingers crossed that they can help*
Aug. 27th, 2007 04:04 pm (UTC)
Sleep is an elusive, near extinct beast.

Hopefully that'll turn out well for you. You could use a little help and break.
Aug. 27th, 2007 04:15 pm (UTC)
:-( Well we can get D*C stuff done, just ya know, it'll be like the robes. But that trim needs to get dyed today for sure. Anything that needs time to set needs to be done today so I can fuck around with it tomorrow. I'm putting off Doctor pants and wig until we're in Atlanta even. And Space Cases shirts I can do in the car or with iron on stuff at the hotel... uh... yeah.
Aug. 27th, 2007 06:09 pm (UTC)
I don't really know what else to say that's helpful right now, hon, so I'm just here offering huge hugs. I'd tell you you could vent all you want to me, but I get the impression you don't have time for much more than what you did here. *huge hugs*
Aug. 27th, 2007 06:23 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hun. Hugs help a lot. :)
Aug. 28th, 2007 03:43 am (UTC)
Re: the Dragoncon thread - This post makes it clear you're in a really fucked up spot. Our sympathies.

ukta states that if you have a moral objection to going to the vendor after her screaming fit about one body artist "competing" with her at an event of 45K people, she will be happy to do some body paint for you (for free), and to comment in her LJ to set up a meeting place/appointment/arrangement whatever.
Sep. 1st, 2007 03:40 am (UTC)
Hey buddy,
Because both of your parents are on disability, there is a program through flma that stops the creditors from taking your father's money. He cannot work to support himself, and until he can, they can't go after him due to that bill.. you have to fill out an application and such, but it works, because my grandmother had to go through the same sort of thing with my grandfather and uncle. It is definately likely in this case, because there is soo much money involved, and there is no way for your mother to pay it back.
I hope that helped?
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