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Toffee butter popcorn is better than sex. Okay, maybe not, but it's close. It's the closest I'm sure I'll be coming to it for a while anyway.

Party at Susan's was fun, despite the high amounts of dorky engineering conversation. I got drunk, but only for a small part of the party was I really feeling the happy, giggly buzz of it. Man, there's nothing I hate more than being surrounded by people and feeling so completley lonely at the same time. I'm still lonely, but at least it feels justified now seeing as I'm actually physically by myself. I just... ugh, I don't know. I have this sinking feeling now that summer is going to be a lot of this... feeling lonely. I've grown apart from people this year, and people who are left that are at home are either busy with work, their significant others, never feel like doing things, or have cooler people to hang out with. And I just, I can't help feeling that too many nights this summer are going to be spent alone in front of this goddamn computer, being bored and depressed that I have nothing to do. Fuck summer... I just want next semester. Unless someone can convince me that this summer is not going to suck. (Yes, that was an invitation.) Funny how this morning I felt like I was going to be too busy this summer to do stuff. There's some manic emotions. I'm just so fucked up... my neurologist is going to think I'm a fucking whack job tomorrow morning... this morning... in 7 hours. I should sleep because I'm already fucking hung over. Yeah, let me just say it's been strange getting drunk by 9:00 PM on a Wednesday evening and being hungover by 1:00 AM. Yeah, sleep... mostly because I'm feeling too sorry for myself to stay awake.

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islandskater
May. 8th, 2003 07:48 am (UTC)
Don't Worry, Be Happy!
Don't worry about the summer! It will be awesome. I'll probably be driving through south windsor every once and a while to go to a friend's house who lives in Windsor. I'll try and stop by, say hi, or maybe we can go check out some more sketchy chinese restaurants... Anyways, if you find yourself sitting in front of the computer too much, just give me a call. I'll show you a good time!
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