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Be my angel if you can, alright.

I'm so fucking depressed right now. I thought it was supposed to be sunny today, what the fuck. It's raining and gray and I hate this weather. I'm going to move to Hawaii or California or something. All the good bands are on the West Coast anyway. And I'm sure no one would miss me. I'm just a stupid depressed girl who doesn't even know how to have fun at a fucking concert. I'm an idiot and I'm just sitting here pissing away my fucking time. Not studying for my math quiz, because I really just don't give a shit. This semester needs to be over, I can't fucking handle it anymore. I'm meeting with my neurologist in a week or so. Maybe he can help me not be retarded and stop sucking at life. Probably not. I just need to start taking my ritalin again. It'll maybe make me happy, make me get stuff done, and kill my appetite so I can stop spending so much goddamn money on take out since there's never any food in my house. I'm such a fucking lardass anyway (shuttup, okay, sorry I know I'm really not, but I feel like one. i'm not in shape.) If it's not too much money, I'm going to join Curves for Women with Courtney and her mom. Maybe I'll feel better if I look better. I can't even stand looking at myself in the mirror anymore, but I guess low self esteem will do that to a person. I hate myself, I really do. And this Juliana Theory song is going to make me cry in about two seconds... ugh. I really hate myself. I'm such an idiot and all I do is hurt other people and make them uncomfortable. *heavy sigh* I'm going to go put all my effort into fighting back these tears now.

I hate myself.

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theantidj
May. 1st, 2003 07:50 am (UTC)
Laura, you rock! You would be crazy missed if you left the area.
I'll see you at work today!
mb20btvs24
May. 1st, 2003 08:14 am (UTC)
I would MISS YOU DEAR!!!! Don't move...=(
angelhitz2001
May. 1st, 2003 08:25 am (UTC)
I would miss you aswell!!! ...I mean come on, you are a part of the suite 0:-)!!! ...Im sure we'll see you sometime over the summer
iheartbootiebob
May. 1st, 2003 11:01 am (UTC)
<3<3<3<3<3<3
(Anonymous)
May. 1st, 2003 01:27 pm (UTC)
Yo...
Yep, you definitely sound depressed there :).

Tell ya what, no matter how much you're hating yourself, no one here is gonna join in. I think you're cooooooooollll :)

Jim
jrovira@drew.edu
Used to be antiutopia
mintmoneymack
May. 1st, 2003 05:15 pm (UTC)
cheer up emo kid :)
jgirley18
May. 1st, 2003 06:07 pm (UTC)
laura....
A few things:
A) I love you!!!
B) don't get doen on yourself, and I'm sure if you need someone to talk to you've got lots of us here to help you!
and if you need anything feel free to call me, IIM me...or stalk me down and drag me to a chair... lol
you know what I mean.
once again feel better we all love you!!!
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