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This one time at band camp...

While it sucks that summer's over, it's good to be back at band. I missed everyone at the UCMB. Even though it's going to suck waking up at the crack of dawn tomorrow to go march, it'll be worth it. All we did was play today, but our music rocks. Our first show has a movie theme: a Star Wars medly with the main theme, Duel of the Fate,s and the Love Theme from Attack of the Clones, Robin Hood and ET. I've waited so long to play Star Wars... I'm so excited! Yeah, the convocation tonight totally got me into the UCMB spirit again, and I'm really excited about this season now. Seeing everyone from band again and all the Brothers and Sisters has made me realize how much I want to be in Kappa Kappa Psi. I hate that I want to be in it so bad, too. I hate the fact that I'm probably going to rush again, and I hate the fact that I'm probably going to cry my eyes out for days again when I don't make it, and I hate the fact that even if by some twist of fate I did make it in, I wouldn't be able to do it because I don't have any time. Actually, if I got in, I'd make time, even if it meant giving up something else that was important to me. I hate fuckin' fraternities and how the mess with your head. Rargh! It makes me so mad! All I know is I want to be a part of their group so badly, and I can't really explain it. I just felt so left out today... not being a DI..., er squad leader, or a member of the band council, or a brother or sister. I just feel like I'm not getting the most out of the UCMB experience, and now frankly that's making me feel as though I'm not making the most out of my college years... am I working too much? Am I letting collge just pass me by? These are supposed to be the best years of my life. Wow, this is way too much thikning for one night. I need to sleep... so much for putting my music folio together tonight. I can't believe my alarm is going off in less than five hours... ewwwww...

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