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First, all I have to say about Heroes is that I have never been more torn in my entire life. I couldn't decide who I was more jealous of... Peter or Elle. I think part of my brain exploded. This show is going to tear me into a million pieces come December, I know it.

Second, I got a 77 on my genetics exam. It could've been much worse, but now I've got like an 82.6 in the class, which is hanging on by the skin of my teeth. I need to get at least an 84 on the last exam if I want a B in this class. Ugh. Pressure.

So, are you ever in a place where like every single song you listen to just like speaks to you? And every song you listen to just resonates in an almost painful way? I don't know why, but I'm there right now. I can't decide if I love it or hate it, and even though it's quite possibly masochistic, I have found myself listening to a lot more music lately.


"Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you, caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new." (C.Lauper)

"She likes chocolate in the morning. She drinks her coffee late at night. You can sense that she is guarded, but that’s alright. She’ll fall asleep while your still talking, with unfinished books beside her bed. She’ll cancel all of her appointments and go shopping instead. And in spite of what is right, far beyond what she’d except, when the moon begs the question, will you have the answer yet? Can’t you just adore her?" (M.Moore)

"All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away again." (C.Bell)

"Your subtleties they strangle me, I can't explain myself at all. And all the wants, and all the needs, all I don't want to need at all." (T.Ritter, N.Wheeler)

"How do I get back there to the place where I fell asleep inside you? How do I get myself back to the place where you said, I want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life..." (S.Jenkins)

"Tossed and turned alone all night, thinking about you. Tossed and turned alone all night, like I usually do. I wanted to feel your love laying next to me, but you’ve become a phantom dream. You’re not reality." (B.Mumy)

"I refuse to give into my blues, that's not how its gonna be. And I deny the tears in my eyes, I don't wanna let you see, that you had made a hole in my heart and now I've got to fool myself... I'll pretend my ships not sinking." (R.Drummie)

"Well I’m not paralyzed but, I seem to be struck by you. I want to make you move because you’re standing still. If your body matches what your eyes can do..." (S.Anderson)

"Lately I just can't shake it, I count the days in seconds and minutes.
Hours and hours are subtle as shards of glass in the skin. So lay with me,
I could use the company. You could help me ease." (C.Carrabba)

"I got time just to waste if you would be my new escape." (T.Pagnotta)

"...A phone call I'd rather not receive. Please use my body while I sleep. My lungs are fresh and yours to keep, kept clean and they will let you breathe. Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? ...The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around. I'm not writing my goodbyes. I submit no excuse. If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake. If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells and remove whatever makes you hurt...I'm not letting you check out. You will beat this starting now and you will always be around. I'm there to monitor your breathing I will watch you while you're sleeping. I will keep you safe and sound. Does anybody remember back when you were very young. Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?" (V.Accardi, J.Lacey)

"You don't do it on purpose but you make me shake, now I count the hours 'til you wake. With your babies breath, breathe symphonies. Come on sweet catastrophe..." (J.Partington)

"I've been awake for a while now, you've got me feelin like a child now, cause everytime I see your bubbly face I get the tinglies in a silly place. It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose, wherever it goes I'll always know that you make me smile. Please stay for a while now..." (C.Caillat)

"It's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away, when I am missing you to death." (B.Gibbard, J.Tamborello)


Shut up. I haven't been emo in a while... I think I'm overdue. So just placate me, okay? And don't try reading into them too much. Most are probably not what you think that they're about, and some of them are. But just, yeah. Some are old, and some are about more recent things, and some are about things you don't have any idea about. But they're just... what's speaking to me at the moment.

So there's some sort of bright warm orb up in the sky... I think I remember it... I think it's called "the sun". I might go check it out. I think some sunlight could do me some good. Later, skaterz.

Comments

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madrona
Nov. 13th, 2007 07:26 pm (UTC)
I haven't been in your precise situation, but I've been in the place where that list of lyrics would have seriously f'd me up for the rest of the day and I would have kept listening to it on repeat anyway. Probably in lieu of attending class (btw, don't do that).

Having had that experience makes me want to just reach out and catch you right now and keep you safe in a small box somewhere. Even if I could, though, I know better. But do take care of yourself.
wolfsavard
Nov. 13th, 2007 08:16 pm (UTC)
Oh don't worry, I've already done plenty of the skipping class due to emo-ness in undergrad. I hope I'm over that...

And thank you. *hugs*
clarkdreams
Nov. 13th, 2007 08:34 pm (UTC)
Reading your lyrics just reminded me of stalking Mandy Moore in Boston. And that put a smile on my face on this crappy day. Emo or not - they served a dual purpose today :)
wolfsavard
Nov. 13th, 2007 09:10 pm (UTC)
Awww... I love you.
bellipotens
Nov. 13th, 2007 09:01 pm (UTC)
So, are you ever in a place where like every single song you listen to just like speaks to you? And every song you listen to just resonates in an almost painful way?

Oh God, do I ever understand that. I remember last week, when I was going through a crisis with a friend and every single song I clicked on in iTunes made me cry or was painful for me to listen to. It didn't matter if it was an upbeat tune, for some reason, listening to the lyrics would just hurt.
wolfsavard
Nov. 13th, 2007 09:11 pm (UTC)
And yet, even though it's painful, you like can't stop listening to the song... it's cathartic.
daydreamer
Nov. 14th, 2007 02:51 am (UTC)
I have a playlist called 'wallowing'. Therefore, I give you permission to be as emo as you like.
wolfsavard
Nov. 14th, 2007 04:00 am (UTC)
That's a brilliant idea. I should look into that...
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