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This could be all I'm waiting for.

I haven't written since January, so I figured it was time for an update. February was a pretty crazy month. I've been sick now since February 10th, so I'm shooting for a month. It started out with horrible aches, a fever, and a terrible cough. Now I am blowing my nose every 10 seconds, still don't feel awesome, and have a great deal of pain from the muscle I apparently tore in one of my coughing fits. I love how this illness won't go away, it just keeps mutating. But yeah, being sick is one of the few things I'm good at, so I'm going to shoot for a month. It's good to have attainable goals, right? Haha. So, updates on the rest of my life...

Delta Sigma Pi is going pretty well. Being president is a LOT of work. I feel like no one really knows how much I do because most of it is behind the scenes, but I feel like I spend like the majority of my day thinking about or doing things for ΔΣΠ. It's worth it, but it's just hard. It's definitely hurting other aspects of my life. I'm fairly certain that I got sick from being so stressed out about everything. Getting sick has not helped school either. I'm pretty behind on my work, and actually have been trying to finish a paper all day that was due the Wednesday before spring break. Yes, kids, this is my spring break... trying to catch up on missed work while watching the blizzard outside my window and going through a box of kleenex a day. I know you're all jealous. I haven't had too much time to deal with the job situation. I've had a few interviews. Nothing horribly promising or particularly appealing. I'm really close to giving up on the whole thing. I just don't care anymore. It's so stressful. I'm really poor, too. After not working and just paying for my own car insurance (my wonderful aunts nicely informed me that I won't be on my mom's policy come April). I should lose lots of weight by Spring Fling because I won't be able to afford to eat. Brian visited the weekend I got sick, which was I'm sure incredibly fun for him, but he was really sweet and took care of me. But in the end we sort of came to the mutual agreement that it's probably better for us to be just friends. I'm not upset though, because I think this is the way things were meant to be. And I'm doing okay. I'm actually doing a lot better than okay. I really hadn't intended for this message to sound as depressing as it has, because I'm just fine. I'm actually really happy. I guess all it takes is for one aspect of your life to be more incredibly perfect than you could've ever hoped it to, and it doesn't make the rest seem that bad. It's amazing the effect that one single person can have on your life. (Sorry if I'm being a little cryptic, but sometimes you need to keep the really special and wonderful things a little bit secret.) So yeah, if you're worried about me, don't. I'm really really really great. :-) Nice change for once, I guess. But yeah, I'm going to hate myself if I'm not a little bit more productive than I've been today. Back to work. Later, skaterz.

PS - Sugarcult in only two days!!!!!

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kellystar
Mar. 9th, 2005 12:45 am (UTC)
awwww sweetie! i'm so happy for you. it makes me so happy that you're happy. <3<3<3<3<3
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