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Yeah, so I started to write a journnal entry last night, but I really couldn't manage to keep my eyes open, so I decided to just go to bed. Of course I went to bed without getting anything done that I really needed to get done and I didn't even go to bed that early either. But I haven't been productive since Wednesday so why would should I break the trend? Things have been better since Wednesday, but I mean, it wouldn't have taken much. I just haven't been getting any of my school work done and I haven't been going to classes. Okay, I really was plannning on going to BLAW today, but my alarm clock hates me. But I still haven't done my Italian composition that was due on Thursday. Which is a problem. I really need to do that tonight. I don't have a really good excuse as to why it hasn't gotten done, I've just been wasting too much of my time thinking. My stomach has been in knots thinking and obsessing over things I shouldn't arguably be thinking about. There's been a lot of stuff I've wanted to write in this, just to get things out, but I'm sure it won't make any sense or help me figure things out, and would probably only succeed in getting me in trouble. That's been the trend any time I write a less-than-superficial entry. So I guess I'll just recount my weekend instead... Thursday was still kind of rough, and even though the Red Sox lost, it was a good time seeing all of the brothers and pledges at Joe and Bobby's. I showed up just in time for all of the commotion after the game ended. Poor, Joe, I really wanted them to win for him. I stayed the night so he could wake me up in time to paint our rock for our pledge class. Ya know the giant one on South Eagleville Road? Yeah, we had to paint that and the only time our pledge class could agree on was 6 AM on Friday morning. Getting out of bed was pretty rough, but once we got to the rock it was a lot of fun. It only took us about an hour and it was really awesome to see the pledge class working together to accomplish something for once. And

came out really awesome. I'm so proud of it! But yeah, classes really didn't happen after that... actually nothing did. I was completely lazy until I went to John's party. That was a lot of fun and was sort of in celebration of Susan's (aka the best roommate in the entire world) birthday. We drank a lot and let me just say that Mango rum is really delicious. Everyone said I was really wasted, but I thought I was maybe less drunk... at least less drunk than I have been at the last two parties I've been to. Saturday was just more of not getting work done and a couple exibitions. It was really awesome playing at Rockville, holy nostalgia, but I think we sort of sucked. I was glad we stayed to see South Windsor though. I was really proud of how good they looked and sounded. Note to self: find out how well they did. I really miss Mr. H a lot. I wish I had time to go visit him. I should probably make time. I was lazy again on Sunday but I did go out to luch with Susan, her parents, and John at the Blue Oak Cafe. That was nice. It was also nice to go out with Matt to Margaritas to celebrate his birthday (even though he paid... thank you, tacchino. :) ) though it would've been nice to be able to do something outside. Perhaps it will be nice again another weekend. Sunday night I stayed up all night with the intent of getting work done, but of course didn't. And of course Mondays are so busy that I have no time to eat so by the time the brother meeting started yesterday, I felt so nauseous I thought I was going to throw up. I don't know whether it was the lack of food, lack of sleep, or too much thinking that made me feel like such shit. It was probably a combination of all three. I just really want to not think about anything anymore. I want to be lying on a tropical beach right now, completely trashed. I'm not an alcoholic, but if I'm completely wasted then I won't be thinking about things. Or at least if I do think about things, they won't seem as important. That's one of the reasons I am so looking forward to our pledge party this weekend. It's going to be awesome. CoreyBeth and I actually went costume shopping tonight, but there was nothing good left. It was all very disappointing. I think I might go out again tomorrow in search of one. I still need an angel costume for this weekend, too. But tomorrow is also WilliBowl with the brothers and Joe and I are supposed to watch a movie. But before all of that excitement... I need to seriously get some work done. And I mean it this time. I'm not going to waste my night away worrying and thinking about things that I shouldn't even be thinking about. So later, skaterz. And sorry for the superficial post. You know how it goes.

By the way... Kristina, I am absolutely devistated that I missed both of your calls. I was at a marching band exhibition during the first and I just missed your second one and almost cried. I will make for sure that I have my phone with me at all times from now on. I miss you like crazy, girl.

And also, the fucking ladybugs came back today. (Thank you, tacchino. <3) I hate ladybugs.

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athena2483
Oct. 22nd, 2003 05:49 am (UTC)
I miss you, too, woman! I just found out about well, everything really, and I wish I could be there now. Hang in there, hon, we're all praying, and I'll try giving you a call this week. Love you lots!
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